First ever post not sure how Reddit works but here goes.

So happy I found exredpill.

I literally feel so angry that TRP practically ruined my previous relationship. I was so happy at the start and it made me so insecure, after therapy and just battling it with myself I finally am working on letting go of that mind-set that TRP made me implement to almost everything in life!!!!

To keep a long story short, I had just started dating this girl, and I had broken my leg. I had a cast on my leg. Anyways we went to the supermarket to start crossing off the grocery list and as we were at the counter I asked if I could take on one of the hand held carts to use as someone had stacked his with his groceries still in.

The guy reacted pretty negatively and basically told me to go get one elsewhere, but with a broken leg I just froze, I couldn't stick up for myself and couldn't do anything....

Anyways, a few days went by and what do you know? I googled. " Will your gf lose respect for you if you lose a fight in front of her" or " lost fight in front of gf " You can imagine what results came up right?

This stupid google search, I never knew what reddit was, I didn't take note of what type of /r the posts are on, I just started reading shit about women and all sorts of stuff. I discovered slowly what TRP was. I was hooked... It was like self harm..

So as I kept reading, the insecurities resulted from it... just broke me. I literally started thinking of everything my gf is doing 'wrong' but ignored the right things. It just sticks you in this mental mindset where you over analyse everything. Around her friends I just changed and became this completely different person.

I instigated that things weren't okay and I just couldn't take the anxiety anymore.. I went to to a therapist.

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Things eventually got better, but it tainted my relationship, sadly we are not together anymore, but you know what's so terrible??? Recently I found out that the 1st articles I ever read, " " Will your gf lose respect for you if you lose a fight infront of her" " lost fight infront of gf " All those bullshit articles and posts I read about this whole type of stuff which spiralled me into TRP WERE FROM TRP!!!! I couldn't believe how stupid I was that I was duped into this whole 'biological' thinking bullshit.

To this day I still struggle... I used to ooze confidence when talking with women but now it's like i developed a social anxiety. It's really effected my mental health so much. Everything I thought about society was just flipped upside down and I'm slowly getting better.

I will keep pressing on and I hope anyone and everyone who has been brainwashed by that cult recovers.