In high school i was an athlete and a scholar, but i graduated with no experience with women and watched all my friends get into hookups and date.

i thought maybe in university things would change.

i was on the university basketball team and maintained a high gpa. still the same thing, no experience with women and watching all my new friends i made getting into hook ups and and date.

i thought maybe once i graduated and started making money things would change.

then when i graduated i started working in corporate and still nothing.

i doubled down on self improvement. nothing changed.

i hired my first escort at 25 to experience sex, and its the only way i can experience sex, i have to pay for intimacy because there is no other way

Now im 32, im more muscular on top of my existing athletic frame, im doing well in my career, doing well in my investing, have made more social connections and friends, have gotten better at networking. still have to use escorts just to have sex unfortunately.

all in all i worked to improve myself diligently over the past decade but still has not resulted in any success with females.

i wont lie i feel a bit angry and resentful. i know i shouldn't carry it as it would only harm myself but when you have been excluded by women your whole life how can you not?

where else would i go? i have tried therapist but its all bullshit because they dont help you get girls.

I even have three gym memberships to increase my exposure to more women which is hilariously pathetic and sad but still nothing.