My ex and I have been on and off for a while. He does this fucked up thing where he gas lights me and then I do this thing where I sugar coat everything that comes out of my mouth... it’s a disastrous combination.

He was dismissive of me the other day and then proceeded to gas light me after I subtly spoke back to him. So, I decided not to take it that time. I knew we would be stuck in the same place if I didn’t learn to respect myself and just SPEAK UP. So, I finally did it... I outright called him a “fucking dick” (pardon my French). Maybe it wasn’t the best language but at least I finally spoke up and I bet he respects me more now... yikes. I hate that I’m seeing this as a step lol.

Ladies, I do want him back (whether I should or not). Do you think I did the right thing OR should I have held my tongue? I feel like I took it too far but I also think he needed a slap in the face so he could finally know that his behavior isn’t okay & hopefully not repeat it again. I don’t know what to do from here (if anything) // not even sure if I sabotaged things for good or not (as I’ve never behaved that way. Not even after over a year together)