After having series of failed relationships and getting my heart broken again and again, I found myself googling reasons why this keeps happening to me. I found FDS in the process and I fell in love with this community immediately. I read the handbook and decided to start implementing all of its strategies in my life. I recently decided to leave my dead-end situationship and focus on myself. I realized in the process of knowing more about myself that I am addicted to relationships. I find it really hard to be alone and as a result, I end up settling for crumbs, ignoring red flags, having extremely porous boundaries and letting myself get treated like sh*t by ex boyfriends. I tolerate disrespect and their half ass excuses because a part of me is scared to be alone and I feel like relationships determine my worth. In light of the decision I made to break this self sabotaging cycle that brings me nothing but unhappiness, I found a man on YouTube that helps me understand the thought process of why I do what I do and how to heal. His name is Alan Robarge. His videos have been very helpful to me and for my queens on here that face the same struggles as I do, I recommend watching his videos and I hope they bring you peace, clarity and healing as they do for me. Now, I am fully committed to my self love journey as hard as it is because being single is uncharted territory for me. I will work on putting myself first, and loving myself the way I expect others to love and show up for me. I have a job interview as well tomorrow and I am really excited for that. I am thankful to have such a community like this and I really don’t know where I will be without all of you guys ❤️