So I just across the post mentioning guys don’t like girls who approach them. When I was pick me at the peak, I’d visit my ex in U.K. in ucl for 4 times in total and he never paid any of my flight fees. Only once he paid the Airbnb in full. I met him on tinder and look wise, he was my ideal type and I felt like I was in much lower scale in terms of looks. And he emotionally abused me heavily even before his female friend came along. I wrote several post about it, if you want to look it up. Then after a. Year I met a German guy and I made the mistake of visiting him again. But my issue is if I let the guy do all the work, in my mind I realized I start to like the guy less and less and would consider them easily disposable. Just like how make mind works. But because I’m going through PTSD even after 2 years I keep telling myself to not invest on any guy in any shape or form. I was once indulged in shera7en video heavily and I realized I should just be gold digger. Because if I wasn’t so into my ex, and thought more rationally I wouldn’t let this ever happen to myself. And mostly I realized good looking guy barely takes the initiative. How do I get through this ?