Does anybody else have this issue?

I'm mgtow and dont make any big effort to talk to women, but when I do and they show interest I feel a internal conflict. I have to beat down my natural instincts to pursue her. I want to love, I want to have someone, but I know it will only end in pain.

How do you guys (for those with the same issue) go about your feelings. I feel sad at points that I literally cant have a normal relationship because I know I'll be fucked over. My overall life has improved thanks to mgtow, but these pockets of emotion are troubling. Any advice gents?

Side note: I'm 22, and pursing a career as a doctor, so I know I have to abstain from these bitches. Especially with pound me too in the works