Getting by unemotionally

PrinceRaj53 · 2019-10-03T03:51:21+00:00

There is absolutely nothing wrong to get rid of your emotions. We men tend to take important decisions by basing them on our emotions when we embrace our emotions too much and let them drive us. A man's emotions are his very first enemy, with regards to women and relationships. You should thank yourself to be able to get rid of them at least to a point where you don't base your decisions on them.

Let go of the ties, let go of the emotions that make you a slave of them. This is what being an abundant asshole is, and that is why it feels amazing and free.

I personally don't see anything wrong with it. In fact, this will actually help you in the long run.

Let me tell you my own story. Hopefully it can be a good example for you as well as others here.

I was 11-12 when I lost my grandfather. He was a good man, with a strong frame and anyone could see his as an influencial person.

I watched him wither away in the last months of his passing (still remember that). He endured surgery after surgery in an attempt to fix the numerous health problems he suffered from. He wanted to give in many times. I would hold his hand and gice him a brave speech about tenacity and relentless endurance, and how "he should not lose hope just because others did", and I told him that I am not letting him go, does not matter whatever motherfucking god is waiting for him (yeah I was kinda stupid back then, but again, what do you expect from a kid?).

I spoke of the dreams of moving up north. Of him walking on his own two feet again. Walking with his redpilled grandson(me) by his side. I could see the fire spark in his eyes, tears streaming down his face.

But in the end, I had committed the most cardinal sin a man on these forums can commit: i used redpill teachings in an attempt to achieve a bluepilled dream, to hold him back and not letting him go.

And then, finally the night came, the night when it happened. My granddad called me, told the whole family to go outside. After I went near him(i was completely broken and my emotions were scattered), he held me close and said to me in my face in a calm and struggling voice, "Please let me go. You can't hold me forever, please. You dont need me anymore. You have become (his name), you dont need me now."

Me : " Why? All my life ive thought that people were nice but i could not take em or leave em at a moment's notice. You taught me how it was different, you gave me a new perspective about life and people in general. How can you leave me now?"

Grand dad : "But you changed that, son. You showed me that you can find your way in this world. You showed me that you are more capable and knowleagable than I ever was. You dont need my guidiance anymore."

Me : "But you are my rock, my wall. How can I let go of you? No!! No matter what you said, no matter what you did, i never stopped loving and caring about you."

Grand dad: "And that is why you need to let go of me son. I searched my whole life for a true successor without realising that I had one in my own house. That's when i took matters into my own hands and I made you, son. You've exceeded all of my expectations. I truly dont know how you've come this far. I am so proud of the man you've become and the new friends you've made. But i cannot go with you to where you need to go. I'm too sick, son. Im never getting better. Its a false hope, an illusion which is playing itself in your head. Your emotions are holding you back my son. Do not let them drive you. Stop them, once and for all. Do not do the mistakes I did. You have your whole life ahead of you, son. And im just holding you back! I am a hindrance in your life, a roadblocker. Let this old guy go out of this game now, because I am nothing but a hindrance in your life now. Let me go son, I am never getting better."

(His voice became inaudible at this point as he was struggling a lot to talk.)

I yelled back "its my life to waste! For once in my life im with someone that matters! I promised you that I'd never give up on you! its my life to waste damnit! This was my choice!"

Grand dad(extremely struggling) : "I'll be waiting for you on the other side. You knew this day had to come. Dont you remember what you said to me? You taught me this : Those who cannot sacrifice anything cannot change anything. Its time to pay your price. I'll always love you. We'll meet again!"

And then he closed his eyes, his breath struck, then he stopped breathing and never woke up again. He became limp. Not realising what happened, I tried to give him some water in his mouth.

As his breathing became shallow, i stoically held him in my arms.

Once his heart stopped, i quietly walked out of the room, to distance myself from the upcoming chaos. And then I realised how I have become free of all my emotions, as I could not feel whatever illusions I was feeling before ("what will I do without him" and "I cant let him go" etc, I just never felt those again).

Throughout the whole ceremonies as well, I was stoic as hell, no tears, no feelings nothing. Thats when I realised that I have truely become free, just like granddad wanted me to be.

This was the price i had to pay to be free.

As a 19 year old today, what I realise is :

A man only becomes free when he has no attachments and has nothing to lose.

The price i had to pay was with my granddad's death. The life of a human ive truly loved.

I finally achieved the dream of every redpilled man: freedom with the tools and wisdom to enjoy it.

All it cost me was the emotions and feeling that were holding me back, including feelings towards my family (mother, father, you name it).

The day when granddad died, was the last day when I had felt that kind of heavy emotions and cried. After that, I have neither shed tears nor felt anything towards anyone, which made me completely free from the blue pill illusions.

gtowerthrowaway · 2019-10-03T03:53:06+00:00

Why would you want to get through it? Embrace yourself, even if you find you're an asshole.

The first step on the path to growth is first understanding who you are. Only then can you begin to try to work with your strengths and tone down your weaknesses.

Menvimacal · 2019-10-04T02:32:59+00:00

It's ok to let it out.

Life goes on,

keep your head up and keep moving forward.

c'est la vie.

Dadeh · 2019-10-03T03:41:12+00:00

Has it affected you enough to take away from your productivity? I mean, you enjoy being the asshole but are also enjoying your hobbies, your projects, your revenue streams?

It could be grief - Intense grief from losing your relationship and your mother back to back. It's like your emotions shut down to cope with the immense amount of loss, hurt, heart-break, and possibly into a covert form of depression.

I feel like you, about 99% of the time. I am not empty though and I can still find enjoyment in all the things I do. I believe this stems from being a "mommas" boy when I was younger, I was raised by women, so I was always overly emotional in my youth. As I got older - Kept getting myself broken by wearing my heart on my sleeve. I eventually just stopped feeling anything. Although, It could be my bodies reaction to coping to everything currently going on with my life. I don't mind it though, people always tend to tell me that I'm an all or nothing kind of person. At times I can agree with that sentiment because when I care - I show you that I care. Although with my children, there is no off switch with them.

I would suggest that you talk to someone. Maybe a close friend or a therapist. I would suggest the former before the latter though. If you're willing to live on huskmode for a little while to repair and build yourself up in aspects where maybe you feel like you can be a little too emotional. Do that. Turn it into something positive - but nothing beats getting things off your chest.

Most people wouldn't realize this and maybe it's the same for you as well. I am still up-beat, cheeky, full of energy, and can still be witty. The numbness doesn't change my attitude towards the things I do. Honestly, it kinda gives me more clarity and the ability to think more rationally in all situations. I don't know your personal dealings with it thus far but just because you can't feel anything..doesn't mean that you're broken.

Also my condolences.

2stepp · 2019-10-03T03:53:11+00:00

The Lord said vengeance is mine...

We, as humans, only have so much time, resources, and energy to focus on just a select few things at once...

When you're out there trying to get over on people, or automatically treating everyone like a shitbag, you are siphoning off energy that could be spent building the life you want. You will also, by default, wind up neglecting anybody in your life who does matter to you.

It feels good because you're in pain. It's a distraction. Do you even know what you want out of life? Did you and your mom love each other? Have you talked to family?

Simultaneously honoring yourself and the world around you is the mark of a demigod, not being a nasty fuck to other people.

If you couldn't tell, I strongly suggest against this behavior because you will wind up inviting a whole lot of negativity into your world. But maybe that's what you need to learn some life lessons.

I'm sorry for your loss.

TL;DR - Do not waste your days on being petty. We aren't promised anything, not even tomorrows. Become the person you want to be. Living well is an artform, and until you attempt to adapt and figure out what that means to you, you're wasting your time and everybody else's. I'm sorry about your mom, dude.

blacktortoise69 · 2019-10-03T03:54:27+00:00

Sorry for your loss. Just never forget that none of these women will love you the way your mother did.

2019-10-03T05:33:15+00:00

Death is like lightning, bro. The strike hits fast. The thunder comes later on. I've had people close to me die and I didn't give a shit. Then years later, they were all I could think about- to the point I could almost hear 'em talking to me. Just embrace and relax. Don't beat yourself up if you feel emotionless. You might be shocked, you might be wired that way to endure war and battle. But I think you're ok. Give it time. Don't worry too much about the girl. When I think of the woman I dated at 21, I barely remember her nor do I want to remember her.

Title	Getting by unemotionally
Author	zZKarma9
Upvotes	7
Comments	11
Date	October 3, 2019 3:28 AM UTC (6 years ago)
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