I've been following MGTOW for a while now on reddit, youtube, and other places. I really agree with everything that's being said and I so badly want to find that inner peace of going my own way and not worrying about dating. The problem is something in me just can't fully commit to it, I still find myself trying to impress and date women and getting hurt in the end.

Looking back on my dating history, its been nothing but damaging. I've always been thoughtful of my partners feelings and honest (never once cheated), but in return I've gotten nothing. (Example: 1 christmas I spent ~$300 on my gf for gifts and in response she got me a deck of walking dead playing cards and a new cord for my phone charger), or the multiple girls who've ended up cheating on me or leaving me suddenly after talking to someone else. Most recently I've been talking to this one girl for a while, going on dates, hooking up, and talking to each other every day with her sending me nudes often. I suddenly find out shes sleeping with other people and when I ask her about it she says she thought we were just friends. We agree to take a step forward in our relationship, until 2 weeks later when I find out she hadn't stopped hooking up with another guy and still only saw me as a friend. I'ts been hurting me ever since and I'm just ready to be done with it all.

I'm trying so hard to commit to going my own way, but somethings holding me back. Can anyone give me any advice or tell me if they felt similar, and how you eventually got over it?