Im a 17 year old who became a mgtow monk, i avoided women by conversation wise and not walking near them. Im NOT getting married and having kids!
Im forced to not be myself around my family and in my high school. They'll just see me as a "selfish" person.
I always wanted a true friend, but they way how my family treats me and the way how i see humans in general makes me want to steer clear from society.
I always wanted to go to college and become a game developer, but yet again life is treating me like dogsh*t. I just don't want to go through crap anymore...
Ever since middle school, i had been bullied and had fake friends. I was also a "follower" (meaning i follow simps who do dumb crap).
My family expects me to know about their pain but yet they doesn't care and understand my pain.
I was suicidal, my mother sent me to a mental hospital(didn't fucking help at all).
loneliness pain starts to hurt me, ever since my little brothers looked up to my mother more than to me.
I started seeing them as fake people now.
Always hear voices in my head, traumatic experiences in my past haunts me and bothers me when im doing school work, computer work, going home from school on my scooter(listening to music helps but it only minimizes it).
I refuse to take antidepressants and anxiety meds(im pretty sure you know the reason why)
So Im just like: wow. So this is how it goes huh? Everyone is treating me like i broke their fucking legs. I guess i deserve to be alone and die early...
Dont get me wrong, i love being a monk mgtow, its just i don't see anyone who isn't fake to me. I
Ironically im doing this on reddit.
All im asking is why? Why? Just why did God let me be born on this planet so i can go through all of this bullshit and see how corrupt society is?
I guess my brain is telling me i need a social life. Nowadays, im just telling my brain that relationships are fucking dangerous.
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