I've been working throughout this whole period, also have to study all evening times. Shit could be worse but with nothing distracting me I've been pondering life and shit, and realised if I can't have kids I kind of have no purpose. I can't train, all I do is work, and the pay off won't come for at least another 10 years (buying my house). I'm not seeing any fruit from my labour. It's getting me down as fuck.