sometime in the middle of last year i went and fucked an escort for the first time. it was honestly a pretty good experience, but i was expecting some kind of psychological fallout, like guilt, or shame, or regret, because i was informed that the fallout is an inevitable side effect of paying money for sex. i knew about this risk but went for it anyway. it's been months and i still feel pretty good about my decision, no shame, no guilt, nothing, i even hit her up to see her again next month.

did i finally break free of moral programming or is there something seriously wrong with me? or is it one of those cases where the guilt takes years to kick in?

im a 30 year old asian male living in the USA if that makes any difference.