I am getting used to this single life.

I have witnessed the slow death of the individual self of mine in the three years of marital cohabitation. I had convinced myself with what we call 'hamstering' -

''dude, this is what married life looks like, everyone puts up with it, you too do the same''

''what would you do alone?''.

''if she is happy, then you are doing a good job''.

When I was there this shaming tactic of ''you got no pussy'' used on single men reinforced the belief that I have something valuable to cherish. Like a rare classic car or a postage stamp. Mind you, all this in the guise of having a meaningful relationship!

Close friends and relatives convinced me that a child would change her partying/consumerist nature and make her responsible and it always been that way with woman. The rational self said ''dude, that's sinking yourself too deep''. That very thought scared me when she tried to get intimate that my penis didn't work. I thought I am suffering ED through marriage stress or something but libido went 0-100 after the separation, lol.

It's fascinating how all the 'inner voice' truths were all aligned perfectly with red pill truths. Her hypergamy, deceit, lies, manipulation games and why I felt uneasy and unnatural.

Work isn't too good at the moment, 1 of my 3 businesses is at the verge of going bankrupt but I have zero debt, decent savings and investments to not worry too much. My needs and wants are too little post MGTOW.

Walking the malls and supermarket and buying just the essentials, a movie once a fortnight, some gardening and garage activities keeps life interesting. I plan to try cooking if I get bored. Travel is next.

I admit I was a mangina , blue pill simp and even did some white knighting ( sorry guys), precisely the reason why I don't think it's worth giving it back to shaming language.

This is a new life path and I see an infinite options opening up, from being a hedonist to nihilist path.

I have witnessed too much sadness- personally and with men around me- One day I was called to the church by a well-established man and he requested if I can take care of his kids if he is gone- implying suicide. I had nothing but tears in my eyes to watch a much revered alpha figure reduced to this miserable state of existence.

''You will know the truth, and the truth will set you free''. Strange how I became an atheist after the relationship failure and now I am going back to quote from scriptures. Life as a journey is interesting indeed.

I thank the anonymous NY engineer who introduced me to MGTOW. I am forever indebted to you!

Thank you, MGTOWs. Please find the peace in whatever way you deem fit.