Hey guys (if that's how you self identify lol) I've been thinking about a very controversial subject as of late. Suicide, or more specifically my own suicide.

I've fought with the urge for years but I really am tired of it now. At this point a gun a bottle of good Scotch is all I really want. The black pill is really all I take anymore. All my friends have absolutely abandoned me for the views on women and dating. One even threatened to hit me over my "woman hating shit".

It was really just my feelings on female promiscuity and how relationships are a bad idea for modern men. My friends are aggressively blue pilled betas or blue pilled chads that worship at the altar of vagina.

My parents are tradcons that believe I'm just overthinking this and that I need to go back to church, and meet a girl.

Truth is I'm listless, tired, and unmotivated. I grow more disappointed with my life every day and I don't want to be here or anywhere anymore. Everything seems pointless. Like I'm reading a book I don't like with an ending I already know. I am disgusted with this world, and I don't want any part of it. I wish for death more than anything else these days.

All I really need anymore is a good bottle of Scotch and a gun.