So broke it off with my fiancee last night. Our whole relationship has been shit for years now in spite of repeated attempts at counseling.

It hit me last night that while she has her share of the blame, the fact of the matter is that I carry most of the blame for the breakdown in our relationship...

...and I am not interested in changing my ways.

I am tired of trying to fulfill someone else's expectations. Yes, I am messy. Yes, I procrastinate too much. Yes, I can be inconsiderate. No, I don't fucking care - not anymore.

The ROI on relationships is too low. It's sad because I genuinely enjoy the company of a spouse, but I am coming to realise I am just not made to have one. I am just MI-SE-RA-BLE in relationships. I've had 3 serious ones, and they all sucked.

Enough.