Life feels longer when you're single. I was supposed to spend my life from 30-60 with a woman and kids but now I'm planning on being single for the rest of my life. Something doesn't feel right. It's like that time period isn't supposed to be spent alone. It just feels too long.

I'm trying to keep myself busy. It's must harder to live life on autopilot when you're not working so much and having to live up to society's expectations. I'm constantly able to have a lot of time alone to think and I can't just escape my thoughts.