through my pounding headache yesterday, and the hangover that had me less productive than a fallen log in a field, I realized my mistake.

See I have a lot of vacation time at work, and hate my job currently, (hence the recent posts about finding another one, the search for which is going quite well). So I took off on Friday. But on Thursday I told myself "Mike you're mgtow you can do whatever you want, so get BLASTED on good vodka". You've got no woman telling you what to do.

So I did exactly that. I got batshit blasted on 8 degrees vodka. And Russian standard gold, and nemiroff, and stolichnaya. Funny how vodkas really do have their own flavors for a liquid that is kindof intended to be clear and tasteless as possible.

So Friday I was a mess. No exercise. No studying for my next IT certification, and the diet was a package of cheap bacon and what I'm going to believe was a klondike bar I foraged from the darkest depths of my freezer.

Now, was my mistake getting blasted on Thursday night and spending Friday in bed pretty much? Has Hannibal Lecter said "NO that is incidental..."

My mistake was using mgtow philosophy of "I dont have anyone telling me what to do so I'll do what I want" EVEN though drinking like that is destructive in nature and not self-improvement. Using mgtow as a crutch or an excuse to engage in a behavior that was counter to my benefit. That was my mistake. Because that is what gave me the permission to gluttenously drink like it was "Beerfest".

The better move, the mgtow move, would have been "I'm taking the day off tomorrow because I feel like it. And I'm going to go get a nice exercise session in and get some progress done in my studies, and then have a nice meal and a glass of wine," the path of improvement.

I mention this because it's easy to say "I'm mgtow I'll play skyrim all day" or "I'm mgtow I'll eat this entire pizza before bed" or *I'm mgtow no woman is going to be telling me to do shit, so ill just neglect myself and well being." And in the end it's a poor rationalization because one of the biggest advantages of mgtow is it gives you the added time and resources and energy to build yourself up. And such opportunity is best used to your advantage.

So. Fridays over. Hangover is over. Learned a bit from my mistake, and I'm bright eyed-and bushy tailed. And I'm going to go to my favorite coffee shop, get a nice big black coffee, grab a massage, and then hit the books until late afternoon and then take a nice long walk. Because I'm a man going his own way, and the path is self improvement.