Might regret posting this but got no one else to really say this to. In a nutshell one of my good friends has always been better than me. Smarter, taller, stronger, better talking to people, etc. We used to rough house a lot growing up. Sometimes I got the win but most was him. As someone in his 30s I shouldn't feel like this since might be a bit juvenile but being really lonely these days can't help feel certain way. I never admit this insecurity to him since don't wanna stroke his ego. But how do I deal with this screaming voice in my head that I'm not good enough like his. We should be friends after all yet still feel like a huge loser cuz I'm not where I wanna be exactly. I do give myself some credit. I am better now than I was years ago overall. Is there anything here anyone recommends I do? Anything helps.