Hey guys im hurting.

I work as a landscaper so pretty much all day im either digging or Weedwacking. I wake up at 7am and come home at 5. Im not living im surviving. Whenever i see my friends posting about going out and enjoying life i cant help but feel jealous, i go to bed within an hour of coming home, the days are so long but strangely i feel as if the weeks fly bye quickly.

There is this girl i like, we danced at my sisters wedding, i guess we have some connection but she has a boyfriend in another city so im not gonna pursue her.

I just need to make it to the end of january, im leaving the country for a 3 months internship i hope it will help me forget about her but she is all I think about.

I've tried to limit our interactions but when i stopped approaching her she started coming to me.

Sometimes i cant sleep because my sorrow rails against me like a storm.

I pray every night that God will take these feelings away

.Edit: i dont exclusively pray for them to go away, its just how i usually end the prayer. I pray that if its in his will, we can be together. But if it isin't, that she wouldin't cross my mind anymore.