Stats: 19M freshman in college, 6’3”, 425 DL, 365 squat, 265 bench, 195 body weight, 12% body fat

Mission: to start a large family and raise my children with biblical morals and values, to make disciples especially of my atheist friends

Spiritual: bible study once a week, praying 3-5 times a week, reading bible 3 times a week

Reading: rational male, book of pook, RP sidebar, Dale Carnegie

Hey guys, first of all I’m super thankful for the information this community has provided. Especially because what’s taught at theredpill and what the Bible teaches can be very different.

I’m struggling with these differences myself, I’ve already made many mistakes in regard to women in my journey so far. I found theredpill 2 years ago and it helped me become a much more attractive person, but this put me in situations with women where temptation took over and I was encouraged to have sex with them.

I’ve been in 2 LTRs at this point and I feel like they’ve both scarred me. My pain from the first one affected the second one which led to its downfall. I’ve always had very deep rooted anxiety and maybe that’s why these things affect me so much. Although I think it may be the natural consequence of not waiting until marriage.

How do I deal with the emotional baggage I’m carrying from those 2 relationships? I want to be a good husband some day and I don’t want my future relationships to be hampered by this. What steps should I take to move forward and deal with these problems and my anxiety? Any help would be much appreciated.