This was a long post, I apologize but there is so much stuff that needs to be explained. English is not my first language.

I made a post a while ago telling you guys how happy I was beacuse my SO found a 5-bedroom apartment and we were finally able to start a family. Well, this apartment has been nothing but hell. When we moved in the previous owner had left the attic and two fricking rooms full with furniture. We spend all of May with help from our new lovely neighbours and landlord (it's a private landlord, he is a really nice man and have tried his best to help us since we moved in)to empty it all. We filled TWO SHIPPING CONTAINERS YOU GUYS. I have never been so frustrated and exhausted. After that we found black mold in the bathroom and one bedroom. I am a sensetive person with asthma and I realised I won't be able to live there if it gets worse and you know, WE SHOULDN'T HAVE BLACK MOLD. So, the entire summer we had to stay in my small one bedroom apartment in another city. We got a date in July that we could move in again. But no, a pipe burst in the backyard and had to be repaired first so the bathroom had to wait. It took another 3 weeks. By this point we are both exhausted and way way way over budget.

We finally got to move in back in August, well the thing is.. it was not done. We still didn't have doors to the shower so it was water all over the bathroom every time we shower. They didn't install lamps in some areas so it's dark. Some areas had no walls/bare wood. We didn't have heating in the upper floor of the apartment beacuse they didn't install the heaters. Mind you, we live in Sweden. We have winters here. COLD WINTERS. So we have tried to call for months for this to be fixed. And guess what. To this day. It's still not fixed. Nothing of what I wrote is fixed. We had to close off the part of the apartment with no heating beacuse the cold spread to the rest of the apartment. It still has no light either in any of those rooms.

Then, about 1,5 months ago OUR STOVETOP GAVE OUT! YES! WE HAVE HAD NO FRICKING STOVE FOR SOON 2 MONTHS. Beacuse no one has time to fix a new one, our landlord have tried calling people but it's no use aparently. I have had to throw away so much food in the fridge, tried to save some stuff in the freezer. I have been trying to be creative with ovenmeals but soon gave up. So, I had to go over budget again to buy readymeals and other food that didn't require a stovetop. I am exhausted and so fricking depressed about this shit. I feel useless for not even been able to feed my SO.

My poor hubby have also been painting and trying to get the rooms without light and heating to look good for weeks. But it's so much damage done to the rooms. I have been crying. And I can see that he wants to cry too. Now, 3 weeks ago. Mice. In the kitchen. Eating, shitting and pissing. Smells awful. We have caught 4. Probably more inside the house and walls. Cleaned the whole kitchen several times and have put away everything in the kitchen to a safe place.

Im in school. He is working. We both are so broke, exhausted and tired of this apartment. We don't even want to live here anymore. We don't want a family here.

The thing is, I have an easier time getting myself to a better place mentally. My SO, not so much. He is extremly depressed and Im really worried for him. He doesn't sleep well anymore, his body is hurtig around the clock, we don't have sex anymore, he is so tired and depressed he barely talks anymore. I can see in his eyes how he just wants to break down. Im trying to make life easy for him, Im cleaning, washing dishes and clothes, I prepare the readymeals, breakfast and leaves notes for him with love and trying to cheer him up. I told him that if he needed me to make any calls or send e-mails to help him take some time off he just needs to tell me. I didn't push for it. I don't nag about anything that needs to be fixed. I know that he knows. He also lives there, we both know what needs to be done. It breaks my heart seeing this strong lively man being so torn and broken down by this. I know he blames himself for this. He has told me he regrets everything about moving here.

My family lives on the other part of the country but has told us that when we are ready to move from this hell apartment they will drive all the way and help us. Im more calm and thinking that this will work out somehow, Im a positive person. I just don't know how to support him right now. Im at a loss. I love him so much, I don't want him to suffer like this. Is there anything I can do more? Any kind of advice is appreciated.

TL;DR: SO and I moved to dream apartment, turned out to be pure hell. Nothing good since May, we are both now broke, exhausted and depressed. Im keeping myself better mentally than my hubby. He doesn't sleep, his body is breaking down and is depressed. How can I support him and help him more??