I don't know what to do. I'm 31, I have 2 kids, and I have been dating this man for a year and a half now. He can be so loving, I have such a strong connection, attachment, and attraction to him. The sex is amazing, he's loyal, he's successful, he's handsome, and up until recently has been committed and adoring to me. And he gets along great with my kids, and they have become attached to him as well.

But he is not perfect, if he sees me crying, sometimes his reaction is anger, because he thinks I'm being overly dramatic, and maybe sometimes I am.

I have to live in a specific school district for the next 9 years. He has told me he is not willing to sell his house in another county to move closer to me so we could live together, because he doesn't like the area I live in. The area I live in is not a bad area at all, just less rural. I eventually stopped getting upset about this because I decided I would rather date him then lose him because he's not ready to move in together. The problem is he wants kids with me. He has told me he is having such a hard time accepting the fact that if he wants the life he would want with me (house and kids together), he would have to sacrifice so much and he is struggling with that.

All of this makes sense to me in a way. But we had a fight last Friday, he rearranged his schedule so he could pick up the kids from school with me. He said some things that hurt my feelings unintentionally. It's hard to talk about things when the kids are around because they get insanely jealous of both of us if we need privacy. It ended up where he said if I was just going to be upset all night he might as well just leave. He left, I completely blew up on him over text later that night, he didn't respond well.

We both apologized and talked about things Monday, but now he keeps asking me for space, I'm hurting and scared that he will decide I'm not worth it and he wants to break up. Space for him looks like having sirface conversations about work, life, etc. but not bringing up stuff about our relationship. I can do this for a day or two at a time but I have needs too. I need reassurance and he said he needs to process things before he can give that to me. I know I over react to this.

I don't know what to do. I love him and I want him so much. But then I have episodes where it hurts so much feeling in limbo, that I feel like I almost push him to end things with me because it's so painful. But then immediately I want him back. I know I'm a huge part of this problem. He says he wants space, we get into a fight, I ask him for reassurance, he can't give it to me, I ask him repeatedly if he just wants to end it and he says he doesn't know and just needs space.

I don't know what to do. I don't want to lose him, but I'm tired of crying so much.