Does anyone have any experience with dealing with thoughts like noone really liked me until I became physically pleasing?

I have fallen into a trap of greed where I want more and more. I got lip fillers yesterday because I felt like I wanted to be even more validated. They don't look bad or even an improvement bc I wanted to look they way I do when I overline.

But, still, I feel such shame. People were never so nice until I started taking care of my appearance & I feel like I have been so short sighted. People are probaly nicer bc I am more confident. Has anyone dealt with this? Am I making sense??