As a red pilled woman, how did you deal with being raped and having that as your ‘ first time? ‘. I always wanted to wait for marriage and was almost there until I got raped in my mid twenties. As a trauma response I slept with someone about a year later a few times. I don’t regret it and it’s what I needed at the time because of the trauma but I wish the whole thing didn’t happen to begin with. I gained 25kg as well. Luckily I’m losing it.

I’m married now but the pain remains. It makes me feel worse as I know his ex lost her virginity to him. I’m not as special as her as I couldn’t.