Im writing this as more as a get off my chest excersice and if I could get feedback it would be great.

ABOUT ME

Mexican, 25, 5'9-5'10, 180-185 lbs, 15-16% BF, decent muscularity, look good on t shirt, square jaw, good looking but kind baby faced (have to get a bit leaner) and I think I have good sense of fashion. When I hangout i can get a decent amount of looks from both females and males. Naturally introverted, but definetely can have good convos. Dont have a car, move in Uber. Would like to have FWB.

CONTEXT

This girl followed me on Insta a couple of years ago and we both replied to our stories back and then but never had a real convo. She eliminated in insta about 2 times and after that, about a month ago I followed her back again and she followed back. After that she send me a message that was about something like "I always elimnate you because we dont talk, whats wrong with you?" with a playful emoji. I laughed and told her that we should hangout and she agreed. I asked for her number and set up a date. She is 21.

FIRST DATE

I set up this date on a coffee, told her to meet at that place. She arrived about 25 minutes later than me and we got to a nice spot on the coffee. The date was overall good I would say. She sat in front of me. We shifted between platonic conversation and flirting. We had pretty good eye contact and she also pointed out at my muscularity and a couple of times she told me something similar to "u definetely workout" while empahizing with her hands my broad shoulders or also told me that "By your pics I thought that you were a jerk". Told me how tall I was (Im not tall, she is pretty short). She did most of the talking, asked me a ton of questions, we talked about some deep stuff (God, religion, dreams) and talk about silly stuff as music stars. Had laughs, fun and was flirty. We had 3 hours in the coffee and I accompanied her to her house. Kino was slight as I could defintely push a bit more, we had some hugs but had room for improvement. I say goodbye to her, hug her by her waist and gave her a kiss of her cheek. This was Thursday.

BETWEEN DATES

Next day I fucked up a bit a texted her about how her day was going and that BS, conversation died off quickly. I texted again on Monday to set up ther next date which she accepted, however she was taking more time to answer me than the previous week where I was setting up the first date. This was starting to worry me a bit but because she accepted the date then I calmed down, just was worrying about if the next date would be akward if she lost interest.

SECOND DATE

This time I picked her up in her house on my Uber and from the very beggining she was physically closer to me, we were having a fun convo on the ride. This time a picked a gelato place on a pretty mall. This time she sat at my side and this conversation was way more flirty and kino was more evident and natural, we were grabbing our hands or i would put my hand on her leg. At some time she gave me of her ice cream on my mouth. We finished our ice creams and went to take a walk in this beautiful but lonely mall. We saw a bathroom on the mall and we entered, I rushed to finish in the batroom and I sat on a chair waiting for her. When she gets out of the bathroom she was about to sit next to me but i grab her hips, we had strong-tense eye contact and start to kiss. After we finish we took a Uber to go for some drinks. In the drinks place we had another fun convo with drinks and ciagrrettes. There was a point where I dont know if it was a shit test. Our waitress had good body but was ugly. My date out of nowhere told me "She is pretty isnt it?" and I replied "She has some good things but I prefer (dates name)". And then went to explain that she has no issue that a date or partner express that he finds other persons pretty, then went to explain that some years ago she tried dating girls but she stopped because she preferred men. As Im paying the drinks to leave the place (it was a pretty cheap place) she tells the waitress "I was telling him that you are pretty" which waitress thanked. We leave the place I took the Uber to her house. Outside her house we started making out heavier as I was kissing her neck while putting my hand inside her jeans to grab her ass cheeks. At some point she stopped to see if there were some neighbors watching. I told her something like "Would you resist for me to take me in?" and she told me something like its too late I need to get up real early to go to work tomorrow, which it was true and also applied to me too. I ordered my Uber to my house and said goodbye with a kiss and spank. This was again on a Thursday.

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AFTER DATES

About half hour after 2nd date I noticed she dropped me from her insta close friends, which i didnt give much attention. I decided to talk her on Monday to set up another date which I did but unfortunately didnt get a response. Tuesday I sent a sticker (started with rationalizating about if she didnt saw the message) I also didnt had response. On Thursday I saw stories from her on insta so definetely I was ignored. Started feeling butthurt and sad, but I know its my fault that I wanst also gaming another girls.

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CONCLUSIONS

  • It shows that they girls have a ton of options and why one as man should also have tons of options. At the expense of your feedback, I dont think I had major screw up on my dates, could have done better obviously, but we have definetely had a good, fun time. What I assume happened is that she is just dating more attractive guys for her.
  • Abundance mentality. (Related to previous point) If you decided to finally stop monk mode or stop being a lurker and take action, you have definetely have different options, because if you are dating one girl and things start to fall off you are going to start behaving and feeling like a little bitch.

So that it, I think that I had to talk or in this case write about this in order to stop feeling shitty and to move on. If you had read to this point I appreciate it and if you could give some feedback that would be awesome.