Just thought I'd drop a little recent experience I had.

I developed oneitis for this chick I've known for quite some time, and I'm honestly gonna blame it on COVID because I have been stuck in the house for near 3 months and it kind of chipped at my abundance mentality. Before anyone mentions tinder or dating apps, I chose not to download them because I've completely cut off physical contact with people to keep my family safe from the virus.

Anyways, basically I developed oneitis for the chick and was a beta bitch in a situation where she was giving me crystal clear IOI's and I didn't escalate. It eats at me all the time. It hurt more when I learned she fucked some bum sometime after our interaction, and now she's with some other guy that she's letting clap her cheeks. It didn't hurt because she's letting them fuck--it hurt because I fucked up my chance and she told me she didn't feel the same way despite her actions suggesting otherwise.

Anyways, I've been locked in and working out as well as focussing on my online classes. She tried reaching out again, but I left the conversation pretty simple because I don't want to have a full blown convo with a chick I just want to fuck and not be friends with. Then it got me thinking. What is it I even like about this girl?

1) She has a nice ass and hips (she's a dance major)

2) She has a decent face (HB7)

3) She showed me affection which I haven't had in months due to COVID

Now, what are her cons?

1) She's a dance major. If you look online at anybody who graduated with a major in dance, they all talk about how they like it but they're always broke and always exhausted. They all recommend highly that it's best to choose something better to major in. You have to be an absolutely phenomenal dancer to even get chosen by an instiitution, where you'll make chump change. So it seems she's just chasing after her passion but not concerned about making money from it. Ideally her being a dancer wouldn't be a big deal, but...

2) She lacks ambition. Aside from doing a little dancing for school, she does nothing else. Her parents support her with everything (she's 23), she never does anything noteworthy and shows no signs of wanting to improve her life. She's not very book smart (despite visiting Spain for a month, she thought Milan was in Spain) and switched from a business major to dance because she was always failing classes.

3) Her IG pictures make her look better than irl. This can be said for almost all girls though, but it's a facade. Sometimes she looks amazing (HB 8.5 with makeup), other times she looks like a HB5-6.

4) She cheated on her EX. Immediately made me realize I would never want a LTR with this chick, because she would just do the same to me.

Putting all this together, it seems like she's a woman who doesn't have a future. She's thotting around right now before she decides to settle down in a few years with a wealthy guy if she can land one, syphon his money, and that will be that. So I told myself wtf am I doing stressing over not smashing? She's literally just another broad who has it good for now. I'm over here sacrificing lots of leisure time to focus on my studies, and hopefully if everything goes according to plan by 28 I should be making big bucks (I'm 21). I'm almost fully supporting myself (aside from housing. I still live with my parents, but plan to move out very soon). She's not better than me.

I just thought I'd type this out to help some who are going through similar situations. You've gotta break these females down. Aside from their looks, what do they have going for them? Fat asses are a dime a dozen. There's millions of cute girls out there. When the looks fade, will she still be valuable?

Now, I make sure to run (my form of meditation) and stay busy to keep my mind off of her knowing that once I get to hit social settings again, I'll finally get to start fucking again.