Summary: I have been a Blue bitch my whole life, changing way that I see myself and understanding the respect that I deserve as a man and as a human being has brought changes that not not only I have noticed, but also the women around me.

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Some background: I broke up with my two year long girlfriend back in June, she moved to another city for work and the relationship started falling apart, up until the point where she told me that her new job what's the only thing that made her happy and that she felt like she didn't really love me anymore. Now, I was as blue pill as one can be with this girl, I don't think that I was at Beta level, I was flat out Omega, she had cheated on me, I took her back after her begging me to and a lot of emotional manipulation. Only to catch her a couple months later still texting and flirting with the guy, she would throw fits, demanded expensive things from me, always wanted to find out even though she knew that I was struggling financially, but still, lo and behold, old omega me stayed with her.

She was an HB5 at best, but I have a disability which has me in a wheelchair, so abundance mentality is not something that I had internalized until I found TRP.

Swallowing the purple pill: My ex started to beg me to try and work things out, now at this point I was trying to build some self respect, but the indoctrination from being raised by a single mom still had a strong pull on me, so I caved in, went on a couple of dates with her, fucked her brains out about four times, but when she started getting emotional and demanding things, I kicked her to the curb.

Swallowing the red pill: Come December I decided to make a change, I no longer wanted to go back to being a blue bitch, and being purple was still lacking, so I decided to swallow the red pill giving onto us by the gods of testosterone, I started participating in the monthly challenges and even gaming a few classmates of mine (which I decided against, since it could blow up in my face).

It's been a week since I went monk mode, I have been marking my progress with a habit tracker app, I wouldn't say that I'm red pill yet, bu I'm working on the MGTOW aspect of it, not really caring and developing an IDGAF mentality when it comes two women.

Since I started doing that, mind you it's been only a week, I've been getting a ton of IOIs from the girls at work (touching me, briefly sitting on my lap, playing with their hair, asking to come over to my place for drinks) , I also have a 40-year-old milf sexting like crazy, begging to slobber all over my cock.

Lessons learned:

  • The red pill is the way guys, if a disabled chubby-ass motherfucker can do it, so can you.
  • After a break up, the only thing that you need to try and work out, is how you feel about yourself.
  • Envision the best version of yourself and act accordingly.

Aspects that I'm working on:

  • Stop drinking.
  • Eating healthier.
  • Working out at least 30 minutes a day.
  • Studying a language every day
  • Reading at least 30 minutes. (right now I'm working my way through" what every body is saying." by Joe Navarro, after this one I have the reading list from the illimitable man cued to follow.)