Summary: Hard for me to accept RP but I'm trying to disconnect myself from my BP tendencies

Body: So I startec lifting at the age of 10. I started with 10lbs dumbbells and bodyweight exercises. Chicks digged it back then but menvy from other guys was prominent. It was weird because even my friends despised me because I got female attention without doing anything. I was (still kinda am) a shy guy. I kept on lifting because I liked it but also because I noticed how chicks paid attention to me. Anyways, some traumatic shit happened and I'm a great looking guy with a decent body type that can't get pussy. I've only had one gf. The thing is, I'm kind of afraid of going full RP. I have a feeling that I'll have more enemies than friends. At the same time, I do want to go full RP but just the thought of being successful makes me anxious. What the fuck...?