I'm pretty uncomfortable posting this here, but fuck it. What I've read so far on TRP makes a lot of sense. It explains most of my experiences with women, and I want to learn more.

Ive had the feminist ideology forced down my throat since I was a kid, it's pretty ingrained in me. Another problem being somewhat disabled, I have to get hip replacement in a few months, it makes me feel not as physically strong as I would hope. Lifting is difficult, and while I'm in decent shape but don't exude alpha in really any way.

A lot of people here were fed the idea "women love a nice emotional guy" and I'm just realizing this isn't true. I don't aspire to banging a new chick every week like maybe some people hope to achieve from visiting TRP, more like be successful with the women I do meet.

I'm at a crossroads where I'm not sure I can gain much from TRP because the emphasis on being physically dominant, which isn't playing to my strength. Obviously being a "high value" man also involves access to resources, and being emotionally stoic, and other things.

What I'm thinking is I'm out of place, and TRP wouldn't work for me. I've had a councilor that suffered a gunshot wound and limps around barely able to walk that will still intimidate the biggest guy in the room, which gives me hope. I'm thinking of trying steroids to become totally ripped after surgery and see how that works out.

Two girls I met online literally stopped talking to me after I tried saying some of the things I see recommend here. It's probably the contrast of beta me all of a sudden being an asshole. They don't expect it.

Hopefully I'm not doomed to be beta forever. It sucks to think of being in a relationship where I'm vulnerable to being controlled by some bitch.