I'm 21.
I was partially raised by a single mom. My dad never spent any time with me and he was physically and mentally weak as well. His mother was a evil ball busting woman who controlled and manipulated him.
My mom's side grandfather and my mom's elder brother (my uncle) were the only male role models in my life. My dad was a beta male and he never paid any attention to me. My uncle was a redpilled guy. He applies dread on my aunt, doesn't take shit from her and he's strong af. He get labelled as an abusive guy in the family but he never listens to anyone. My grandfather used to be a weightlifter+ wrestler back in the day. I spent lots of time with him as a child. He taught me to do pullups and some invaluable life lessons.
We lived as a joint family until I was 7 and we had to move to other part of the city which meant spending a lot of time with my mom.
My mom is an abuser. Both emotionally and physically. She hit me often if I did something small. She's hyper emotional and a pushover, so she showed all her rage and anger on me. So, as a child i took it out on other kids at the school.
I used to be an asshole bully back in school. I used to be hyper competitive, rebellious, participated in sports, etc. I never had a girlfriend back in my school days because I never felt the need to have one. I was goal driven, wanting to start my business and becoming financially free. I never had any female friends as well because I thought they were unnecessary for me.
But sometime after graduating from high school, when I was 17, I lost the spirit. I put on 30+ kgs of fat, I was depressed, lost my vision, lost my competitiveness. For 2 fucking years, I did nothing. I ate shitty junk food, became socially withdrawn, became obese and unattractive, lost my spirit.
When I was 19, I hit rock bottom. I was 6'1, 290 lbs, didn't have goals, was failing college and I was basically spending all my time in my bed watching porn and crying because I was depressed. Then I met V, who's a hardcore feminist - pink hair, hate all men kind of girl. But she's extremely hot, easily a 10/10. I developed a massive crush on this girl and in order to ask her out on a date I became the very thing I hated back in my school days - a sensitive, obese, bitchy "male-feminist" who was desperately seeking the validation of a girl. She's the first girl I had a proper conversation with tbh.
She also posts these "body positivity", "kindness" and "strong woman" BS quotes. I thought she's the one and I became a cucky male feminist. Then I learnt from a friend that she had a gangbang with 3 guys. She used me for free car rides, free food, validation, emotional dumping, homeworks, etc. I thought she was in love with me. After this gangbang incident, my beta ass started crying and I was borderline suicidal.
Meanwhile, my friend (R) who I consider my elder brother, was redpilled to the bones. He's a fashion model and he's loaded as fuck. He was one of those naturally redpilled guys. He repeatedly tried to instill redpill teachings into me when he noticed that I was getting sidetracked (AF/BB, Hypergamy, AWALT, 80/20 rule, etc.) I was in denial. He's a childhood friend of mine and he's seen me grow.
After I learnt about her gangbanging 3 dudes, I called R up and had a real conversation with him. He basically ripped me apart. He started shouting saying that he sees me as his own younger brother and that he can't let me be like this. He forced me to get a gym membership and to fix my life and he sent me redpilled articles and videos. I didn't have a reddit account back then as I didn't feel the need.
But still, I didn't take any action. I was contemplating if I should kill myself or not. I got a joint from a buddy and I was smoking it on my terrace when I got a panic attack. I truly thought I was dying and I realised how much I lost myself for a shitty slut. I realised how i was self sabotaging myself and I made a promise to myself to change my life.
That night I changed my life. I decided to become the guy I used to be back in high school and the type of guy my younger self would've wanted to become.
I started hitting the gym and fixed my diet. For around a month, I was doing only cardio and with the help of a friend, I designed a PPL routine for me and started. Also, I cut off that slut from my life. Started following a standard PPL routine (a friend helped me with this) and within 6 months, I lost close to 50 lbs. But still i was a bit skinny fat. I saw noticable difference but I was not satisfied with the way I looked. So I started a PHAT powerbuilding routine, fixed my diet again. I started eating lots of lean meat, eggs and stuff. I became big. I was getting compliments from people. I was focused on my purpose of starting a business and becoming financially free.
I was on a hardcore self improvement journey, but still I was not fully redpilled. I thought every girl was not like that and I was waiting for a unicorn to arrive. Since I became muscular and I had a purpose, my confidence was fucking through the roof.
Then fucking covid hit. I almost became complacent but something within me didn't let me. I did home workouts - squats, Pushups and pull-ups daily. I'm proud to say this, I was the only person in my social circle and extended social circle who didn't become out of shape during the quarantine.
I became muscular but after quarantine, I lost my self improvement ways again. I started becoming a bit soft, withdrawn but never stopped lifting. In fact, lifting was the only thing that kept me sane.
I mentally hit rock bottom again. I was physically muscular, strong and attractive. (6'1/230 lbs at 20% bf) Like I said, I used to compete in sports back in school, so I had decent muscle mass even when I was obese. So, muscles came fairly easy to me.
Then I meet this hot slut (G) at a cafe. She found my Instagram through the barista (the barista is a very very close friend of mine) and she texted me. Apparently, she's a regular at that cafe and she's seen me a couple of times before. We started going out on dates. She was full of red flags from the start - Attention seeking on social media, drinking problems, shady past, hot-cold behaviour, etc.
I lost my virginity to this girl and she was wild in bed. She literally was a pornstar and I could not believe how innocent and sweet she acted the entire week before. Apparently, she lied to me about her past - told me she's only had sex thrice but seems like she's had over 23 partners at age 20. (Learnt this through a friend. She had a shitty reputation)
She claimed that she loved me but her actions said otherwise. I got fed up and I dumped her after 4 months of dating.
Apparently, she's never been dumped before, so her ego took a hit and she tried to ruin my life - she lied to her friends about me and stuff. I cut her out entirely and then I remembered about TheRedPill.
Again, I call my friend and talk to him. He asked me to go through the redpill materials he's sent me before. I binged on them daily and started noticing patterns in women. I started realising what female nature truly is and it was like a whole new reality. I noticed af/bb, Hypergamy, AWALT in real life and it was disgusting to say the least.
Then, I learnt game and I started spinning plates. Currently have 3 plates and two of them are thick 7s and one is a low level actress.
After entirely swallowing the redpill, I started taking action. I've invested some respectable amount in stocks, I'm almost done with my professional qualification, my lifting total is 500kg now. And I'm on my way to buying my dream car and starting a retail store.
None of this would've been possible without redpill. If anyone depressed/lost is reading this - there's hope guys. Start small, but start. Little steps give big results.
Thanks for reading.
