So after brokeup with gf of few years got crippled and so so.

Now working on what I have lost over the years, being a prize, outcome independence, body mass, frame. Yet I need some advice and good reads to refresh myself.

Currently having this girl which I have had sex before meeting my ex gf. So while I had my gf, she had her bf then husband and a house. They separated. Short story she wrote me, I asked to meet, we hooked at her place a few times after. Went on some hikes and shit. My stupid ass decided it’s relationship material. I like LTR so fuck off, my thing.

Obviously daily chatting is bad, which I did. After few weeks she became distant. Maybe because she had some personal shit going on. So my traumas sense this stupid avoidant attachment shit and I start to seek for a reason whatsup. Basically had a discussion over phone that she might not offer me what I seek. While I told her not being a priority is not my cup of tea. So we are on standby as she asked to think about either I want to continue as it is. I am a plate, guys.

So I want to LTR her, but FWB is fine too atm. I am loosing power dynamics and I’d want to become a price in long term.

I am not yet in a place I want to be, nor I agree with 100% what RP claims - I need advice from like minded, uninvolved people of what to do.

Thanks.