Hi all, throwaway for privacy reasons. I'm an ex Christian atheist now, but married while very devout Christian. I married on a rebound. If I'm honest, I'd say my ex was a 9 and my wife was a 6-7. I didn't really give a fuck about her, but she was in love so I married her. I was always a passive person. I was good at school and work, but bad at extra activities. (Still am). Tell me what to do and ill do it or find someone to do it, otherwise, I'll just lay in a couch. Recently (18 yrs after my marriage) I realized my fuckup but I'm not sure what I need to do next. Also, I've got into guns now but wife is against all weapons in the home. She would not mind other hobbies but this sh has problems with. I feel like I need to be out of house for wife to be happy. She stays at home and I provide income (good for her not so much for me) She claims she'd leave me and divorce if I buy a gun. I'm tempted to call her bluff