I thought I had a good one. Now I see that maybe shes just broken. Shes been putting me through a major shit test lately. I admit I've faltered here and there. However, I told her I cant stop her from leaving, that I don't need her and that I can have any woman I want.

I've really been hitting the Gym every day as of late i'm seeing some good results. Getting hit on and tons of IOI. I ignore it mostly but it does give me the validation I deserve. I made a conscious decision to marry my wife, to stick with her, and to stop spinning plates (even tho it was before i swallowed the pill) I have tons of hobbies and try to stay in a positive and optimistic outlook. And now shes bored and unhappy, wants to move out and divorce me. We've been living check to check and I let a new job get the better of me. I own that shit I failed, Im correcting the course.

Im saying all of this because she was the spark that woke me up from a pretty serious depression and set me on the right path theres something to say about a woman with that power - the sex was hours on end of serious fucking some of the best Ive ever had and Im 44 yrs old. I will also ghost her if she doesn't straighten up I'm indifferent and want to succeed in myself and that includes my marriage, im not afraid to fail id just rather not. I am changing myself to better my life with or without her. Preferably with, we all have beta traits now and then, thats mine.

I want to try and save the marriage ultimately.