So me and my lady are new still and things have been smooth sailing. I can honestly say it’s because of all the hard work I have been putting in.

I’m not perfect though and I will still have bits of insecurities or issues that arise. Sometimes this happens when I’m with her and plan to be for the whole day. I’ll then have this thing on my mind and it will fuck with my mood and I am awful at hiding it or putting it to the side. So it shows. And she will ask what’s wrong or why I’m being quiet. If I think it’s a boundary issue or something of the sort ill bring it up. But at times it will literally just be my scumbag brain coming into play. At the time I can’t always see it as that and I need to look inward first. But again that’s hard with her being there. I don’t want to bring it up if it is an insecurity of mine because then I look like a pussy and later regret doing it anyway.

It happened the other night and it snowed so I used that as an excuse to step away to clean off my car. But I can’t always just step away. She views me as always being strong as fuck and handling things so well. I usually do. She will even say “I wish I could handle things as well as you do.” But again I’m still growing

what might be the best ways to tackle this when it happens and I’m in the moment and can’t hid something being wrong??