35M, married, 3 kids. Engineer-turned-entrepreneur, grinding through startups with moderate success but no big exit yet. I've always played by the "moral" rules—doing the right thing, being honest in deals, avoiding shady shortcuts. But where has that gotten me? A place in heaven? No. No recognition, no rewards, just slower progress while others cut corners and get ahead. It's like Christian morality is a self-imposed handicap. Better to get rich and ask for forgiveness later. Share owners certainly wouldn't mind. Fuck it.

This mindset bleed into my marriage too. For years, I've respected the "sacrament" — avoiding temptations, staying loyal, putting family first. But what do I get? A wife who gets a crush on a coworker (dragged her feet on boundaries until I filed for divorce, then backpedaled). Now limited fucking. She thinks I will stay?!

I'd rather burn the world down and then ask for forgiveness. I'd rather destroy my family, finding another woman who likes to fuck and then ask for forgiveness. To hell with morality.