How to stop this?

I posted a couple weeks back for critique on my progress not all of it great but I did get a couple good comments!

I posted about the dread I had implemented with rationing my time/attention after being a complete bitch whiteknight because of the childhood relationship between my mum and dad!

I also got that dating coaches and pua stuff has it's place but not here! And following them is the most beta shit you can do! You live by and make your own rules, also that you should never ever have to tolerate a women's bullshit or be some kind of emotional tampon!

I have done some reading on this and am trying to implement this into my frame. (Which I am obviously building from scratch like so many others).

Another great comment was about me being far too serious! I had a very rough childhood and early adulthood and really believe that all of that has given me a very serious demeanour where I don't smile too much, I hardly ever joke around and be playful and have even had comments from people that when I do my face doesn't even change. What the fuck is that!

So how do I stop this? I love my life right now I have a great job that I love I have my own place and am learning to drive. I go on holiday with my friends twice a year, do cool shit all the time and am In okay shape not the best but okay.

If I'm honest considering where I came from to now I'm pretty pleased. As it didn't turn out so great for some of my other family members.