So tl;dr friends with girl, girl,is basically female me. I basically fall hard for this girl but I fuck it all up. We were never a thing because of 3 things.

I was very very beta. I fucked up my future 3 years ago and she knew this I became emotionally attached to early and was plagued by indecision and inaction.

One problem still remains- I still really like her, but after Friday I won't see her again for at least a few years as we will be going to different schools. I find about 95% of females I've met annoying and a waste of my time. I Recently learned a lot about human interaction as it is an area where I am lacking. One of the things I had come across is the levels of conversation and I relized she is the only person I reached the top level with.

I personally don't want to go by the standered red pill life style of spinning plates, as I feel it carries undue risk and seems unfulfilling, but that's just me. As I mentioned before she is the only other person who I felt was worth my time, with this comes the realization that she did not feel I was worth it enough to be in a relationship. However I do not wish to give up on her so here is my plan.

Become alpha by: Exerciseing and eating less- I have already started this step and have lost 27 pounds and now to small for most of my clothes.

I will no longer allow myself to escape life through video games

Buckle down this fall so I can go to the school I want and get my dream degree.

Run into her again in the next five years, and try again.

The existing failure states are: She's taken, She rode the cock carousel hard, I fail to accomplish my goals, She has excessive debt and needs cash, I never see her again.

Is this a good plan or is it just oneitis. I appriciate any advice, or tips from anyone that had a similar experience.