I guess all of you were right. LTR 2 years. I treated her porky I cheated several times though she doesn’t really know. I left the country two weeks ago and we were still sort of together although we weren’t officially as we’d broken up several weeks before because I was going away for the summer. She becomes distant a few days in and today tells me she wants space and time to think until I come back. I pushed her as I’ve seen this play talked about constantly here on TRP. I push her and she tells me she has been getting with this typical chad. I’m used to her being so submissive so feminine around me and doing anything I tell her. But she was pushing back and saying I didn’t own her. Such horseshit all the bullshit she was saying about needing time. She just needs time to fuck another guy while I’m not there. Not like it matters much I have another hotter thing to go back to (the girl I was seeing between breaking up with her and leaving although there was some overlap as me and her still met up a bit and kept fucking) but my ego isn’t hurt and tell you the truth I’m suicial over this. She was my girl or at least I thought she was. I feel like all women are cruel. I’m so mad at myself for allowing myself to be hurt I’m usually stone cold. It’s made worse by the fact this guy is a real Chad kinda guy, ogre-like. She was tryna deflect it so much and say it was nothing and just a distraction but she effectively chose him over me. She also said she doesn’t want to lose me and loves me so when I get back she wants to be with me or something. I feel murderous rage in me and so bitter. I want to watch her burn. She has caused me similar pain before we were a very toxic relationship but I did adore her. I don’t know what to do my head is everywhere. I blocked her after about 5 hours of fighting and I know intuitively that to never talk to her is the right thing but the idea of her getting fucked by another guy makes me suicidal. We’ve been together albeit on and off since we were 17 and she was a virgin. I see her as pure and the fact she’s doing this has destroyed everything I thought. The fact that trp is actually true too has made me so bitter. It’s shit like this that makes me want to just jettison all women off a plane. Please help with any words of advice. I am lost and devastated and just broken.