Since the start of study season (3 weeks ago for me) I am in a new class,at first I wanted to play a big social circle game there,but since that I have seen that it subconsciously develops an validation seeking attitude on me.

Aside from it,I don’t know whats happening on me but I think I have been lowering my game to 0,since I live in a small town and cant do daygame/nightgame every weekend and have to wait even months to do it.

Thats giving me depression because I think that,a few months ago I had good game and better attitude (I think I am becoming beta again)

I still lift,sleep well and have a healthy lifestyle and good habits,currently focusing on studying languages too and setting my goals,but this part of me is killing me honestly.

Have you ever experienced this? If so,what you recommend me to do?