I am a 31 year old male, she is a 27 years old.

I was MGTOW for a very long time. I lost my virginity with 28. I know how cruel women are. I fall in love easily and I am a romantic person.

I was surfing POF for Red Pill dating. I was hurt a lot of times, so adopted the pump and dump strategy. I always have to approach, but she approached me. Normally I make up a completely different personality, I don’t even mention my real name. But this time I simply tried to be brutally honest. Why? She didn’t seem the feminine time of woman: She has short hair and dresses more like a man. I thought that she is not my type, so I didn’t have to lose anything – and she mentioned that she liked nerds.

We started to write each other. First, she ignored me for a few days. During that time I wrote an other woman, which I was only interested for sex. This woman wanted to date me, so I turned off POF to appear to be interested in a real relationship. But before turning off POF, I asked the first one (lets call her Lisa) for her number. I did not expect to get it, but got it. This was five weeks ago.

We chatted for six hours every day and met each weekend. She was the first woman which really had the same humor like I do and the communication was perfect. No hiding, no pretending. It seemed too good to be true. She appeared nicer and nicer after every date to me. I got addicted to her.

She said I am the first one she would consider to be a father for her children. I had planned a vasectomy, but aborted it because of her. We had no secrets and told each other everything. I started to ask her RP questions to find out if she was worth it. How many did she have? She said eight. She lost her virginity with 13 and had two relationships, which lasted under one year. The first relationship was when she was 16 (he was 26) and the second was when she was 26.

I immediately thought she was an alpha widow because of the first one, but I didn’t tell her what I thought. She said that she cannot fall in love, she tried it every time. She also felt lonely in the past, but now not anymore. She has two cats and lives in her own apartment.

Her age was a red flag from the beginning and her number of past sexual encounters was also not easy to swallow, but I thought to myself: If she cannot fall in love, at least she has not much baggage. Furthermore, she said I was her best one after about two weeks. In the meantime I started to have Sex with the other one. Lisa knew about it and didn’t care as long as I don’t have Sex with her. I said to Lisa that as soon as she feels ready, I will break up with the other one.

I asked Lisa after how many dates she would like to have Sex. She told me that she had a bad experience with a broken condome and even didn’t like the guy. She was disgusted by it and wanted to have only sex if love is there. My RP alarm went through the roof. Okay, I have no money, really nothing to offer her, but still, I began to see the double standard. It was also not logical, because her last one was not the one with the broken condome, but she didn’t feel anything for him and still had sex with him. I asked more and more RP questions and she said: “Perhaps I am really a slut”.

I asked her why we didn’t have any sex if I am the best. After some consideration she told me that her rule was unfair. But still no sex. Four days ago we met and had some lunch. Afterwards we chatted today and she told me that I gave her goosebumps, but was not horny for me. I am deep in love, but said to her that perhaps I am not the right guy. She said that the other ones are worthless and I am the best. So I asked her the for me crucial question: “Did you get horny for them after five weeks?” She needed a lot of time to answer. “For some yes”. That was enough for me and I said to her that I don’t want to see her anymore. It was very hard for me, I had to whine. She knew she couldn’t get me back (I already deleted all her data once before, because of the rule which I mentioned above), she wanted to keep the contact to try longer. Nobody gave her goosebumps before like I did.

So, what should I do? Should I continue, lose my dignity and try to make her love me? Perhaps she is really developing a deep love for me and needs some time?

She has no daddy issues. Her father was born 1920 and became her when he was 69. He was more the old school kind of guy. She says that she cannot fall in love like her father.

I feel that she is developing feelings for me, but I am not sure what to do. Please help me to find the right decision. What would you do?