I'm trying my best to improve myself, but I have one thing holding me back.

I have malabsorption (tldr eat like crazy, but shit everything out instead of my body absorbing what I eat).

One of the key steps in improving SMV is by lifting. Both directly and indirectly, being bigger helps.

I've been lifting about a year now, and nothing has happened except I got leaner and very minimal gains. Malabsorbtion also caused me to not grow properly as a kid, I'm not short just have a big head, small wrists, thin neck, so I'm out of proportion. This makes me rather unattractive, I have the mind of a man but look like a prepubescent teen, which also has a knock on affect on my confidence, and thus game.

I've tried supplementing with digestive enzymes and probitotics and having a selective diet, but nothing helps.

Its incredibly demoralizing trying to improve yourself, but your body is letting you down.