Where can I start? About me: I finished high school, turned 18 in July, been working a job for a year (no car yet) etc.

Recently, Everything has hit me. I have came a long way for the past 3 years of trial n’ error of my Self-Improvement Journey and Man.. it’s not fucking easy mate,

To cut time short, I work 37 (inconsistent)hours a week I get paid $9.60 an hour (TX), my checks are usually around $400 on avg. (after tax) Which is not enough to Pay bills, Especially if I had my own place. (And I also have to move out soon)

On the financial side all I do is pay my phone bill. send $125 to my mom for bills. Save and Investing the rest into the stock market. I currently don’t own a car yet but I have $600 save up, I’ll have $1k by Oct 1.

Besides that I’ve been struggling to stay on my purpose, especially after work. I’ll be pretty exhausted.

(Purpose = Music Producer)

On the Days I have off I just don’t feel like doing What I Need To Do, I’ll make a beat or two and then go play the game, or waste time. I’m not being consistent with my purpose in order to live the life I want because of the numb feelings i have to deal with everyday. It’s pretty hard trying to cope and break through these feelings and the discipline.

The main things I deal with is A lack of Motivation. Irritability and a Lost of Interest in Activities ex. My purpose.