Hey guys I know this is a weird question but do any of you black guys just feel invisible. Found this sub 2 years ago and everything clicked for me and I knew it was true. Was a fat ass cut down in first year at 6'3 to a sickly 180 ibs and then started hitting the gym, close to a year after that starting to look good. Body is getting very decent gains and more aesthetically pleasing as well fashion and dress sense have gone way up (spent a ton on new shit). I cut my hair regularly as well as personal groom. You would think I'm drowning in pussy , especially with TRP saying that Tyrone's always around the corner to steal yo gurl. Problem is I'm not and yes I also know that I should approach but I feel like there should be a middle point right ?. I work out, I'm a student at school and have a summer job in a heavily female dominated industry with a lot of female clients. Positive interactions so far, I believe IOI's, tho I'm still not sure what exactly to look for. Get smiled at a lot and I have a bit of will smith charisma so that always helps out when interacting with female clients.

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I've had girls smile at me a lot and believe check me out, been called cute 3 times this year but by way lower SMV girls except the last one. A client told me I could model and I don't say this to humblebrag because I honestly don't see it. Negatives I'm bald, my teeth are alright, they're kinda white I guess and my face is extremely unique. Like if you saw me once you would not forget me. I have been told I have striking features but I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. I personally feel so fucking hot some days and others I feel like the ugliest guy in the world. I have been told I look like Frank Ocean by one girl and MMA fighter Jon Jones by a guy at the gym literally the next day, so you know confusing messages. At work I feel like some of the girls are attracted to me always smiling and acting goofy around me. I was repeatedly touched and poked in the stomach by one, another shit tested me hard on the first day of work but does that to everyone I guess. The last invades my personal space from time to time and always "accidental" touching. This might be pretty laughable to some of you and I know I might get downvoted but I get so fucking mentally exhausted sometimes as it's always mixed signals. The other day some girl was asked about me and she said I'm not her type although she says she loves black guys. I go to the mall and the kind of girl fucking black guys seem to be fucking a particular stereotype. Either dreads or extremely thuggish looking. It just confuses me and I feel invisible as a result.

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I flirt, charm, laugh but I have never had a girl just fall into my lap as TRP says happens for the top 20%. Am I just fucked because of my unique face and also if it helps I have a lean but big frame. I am not fat trust me and I look lean but big with thickish thighs. I have some solid muscle definition and know I'm going to keep on improving bodywise as I enter my 2nd year of lifting. I have a black girl who constantly showers me with praise saying i'm cute, I could be an actor and all that and yeah she's pretty but I'm not attracted to black girls plus she's manipulative and may be lying to me. It seems since childhood I have been attracted to every other race except black girls and I feel like it limits my options as black girls seem to stare the hardest at me.

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I know its a long ramble but I'm exhausted, very depressed and have tried to commit suicide 3 times but always pulled away at the last minute. I feel like I care too much about my appearance and it drives me insane at times. I'm just looking for help, advice and suggestions from all parties. I've been lurking this sub for 2 years and finally feel ready to post and get specific advice. Please bear with me as this is my first post and I promise you future posts won't be this long, I just had to get everything out.