20yo here...

Alright so Im a deep monk mode of sorts. Im financially broke student but I aint complaining about that. Im working to get out of that- so Im not worried about that. I also hit the gym and the usual self care systems are in place.

But what is cracking me a little is arguably the lack of pleasures in my life:

  • I dont drink
  • I dont smoke/get high
  • I dont listen to music except at the gym.
  • I keep it under 30 mins of Youtube per day. No TV.
  • Still low sex count (doesnt bother me because Im aware my SMV is low so all in due time)
  • I've been on a 90 day quit gaming challenge because Im tired of wasting my life (Over 60 days so far, less than 30 remain but it might continue indefinitely)
  • I've quit social media and only keep snapchat messaging (not stories) to keep in touch with less than 4 key friends
  • I dont go to large social events really except maybe once every 3 months
  • No Netflix/Amazon Prime
  • Haven't jacked off in 30 days (NoFap)

This doesnt even get into the actual problems in my life but Im not here to whine about those, only a focus on the pleasures I am deliberately removing from my life. I do this so I can force myself to work hard and channel all the free time into work/getting out of Low SMV. Seriously, it's really financially LOW & I genuinely dont feel happy until I solve the money crisis FIRST.

But Im realizing that it's nerve wrackingly difficult to face all your problems 100% of the time. Im crushing my impulses day in day out - it feels like a crucible/ Its incredibly high stress. I am well aware that many folks in the 1% are capable of ignoring all these things with ease and my goal is to be on that level from the beginning(dunno if that makes sense) but how do you manage all of it without Cracking ? What do you replace all of the basic pleasures with ?

Keep going/am I just bitching through a low phase and just gotta push ? Or Slow Down ?