My mom is batshit crazy. She's a control freak who likes to search through my shit, my phone, and room. She liked to leave stuff around the house to make me look bad.

Recently I FINALLY found evidence of them looking in my room (see my last post on /r/raisedbynarcissists). I basically confronted them and they (especially my mom) gaslit the living fuck out of me.

She places things in places where my dad will see. She words things in ways that make me look bad and places subtle accusations in her statements. Everything is powertalk. She's a lawyer. She's smart and clever and dangerous.

I used to get in trouble with my parents for smoking weed (since TRP I've quit). After the confrontation I start find eyedrops on the coffee table. As in my dad sees it and thinks that I only blew up because I'm smoking again even though I told him I haven't had eye drops in years. He thinks I'm just trying to keep my weed hidden or some shit.

She recently stole my keys and searched my car. I originally thought that I had lost them until I found them... in the backseat of my car. Where they would have never been in a million years.

It's weird to described but I've developed an intuition for when she's the one fucking with me and when it's random chance or my mistake. I've gotten a lot better at defending myself but it's nuts.

I'm going crazy. Are all women like this? Are all PEOPLE like this? I mean, thanks for making me aware of it but I'm considering just killing myself. I don't think I can live like this. The constant stress and paranoia.