My dad was the guy who got red carded at my soccer games as a kid, and screamed at referees. My mom is a super codependent "fixer" who can't handle any form of conflict. I haven't turned out very well myself, I don't understand emotions so most of the time I just hide them because they were never modeled in a healthy way. I was a drug addict who is now in recovery but still have a semi-avoidant personality so my relationships are non existant except for a few friends.(never had a formal relationship and I'm 27). My question is how do I become this healthy male we all want to be? Do I need therapy? Are there books that can help or drugs? Any advice is appreciated, I need all the life help I can get.