Since swallowing the pill I have slowly become more and more bitter. I don't have any friends any more. Meeting girls, getting numbers, and talking to them all seems like a process I'm not interested in anymore. Time consuming, no guarantee of gaining anything, but yet only seek them out for sexual needs and validation that I am something. I hate that shit. I feel empty, alone, and the world looks so stupid.

Does a magician amuse himself at home with his tricks? He knows how it works and it no longer amuses him.

Why should I even put effort into girls, self-improvement, and all that if I know they aren't going to be around in a few days?

Some back story, yes I've been somewhat successful and rejected a fuck ton. I feel like a self-absorbed asshole without any emotions. Why the hell am I basing my life off of females who aren't really fulfilling? My life feels meaningless and no matter how many girls I get and things to check off on the list, I don't think I will ever find something to fill the boring/gray life we live. Its not that simple to find a hobby, that's just putting a band aid on it.

In a world raised by women, is another woman really the answer we need?