Hey all Ive got a problem... I think.

Have you ever felt weak? I feel like this a lot lately. I have an LTR, i started gym, i do cardio and take my multivitamin. But there is this feeling in my head that something is wrong or bad. Let me give you an example: Lets say i have X planned and something happens at my job that i have to take a trip out of home for a week that period.

Seems like no big deal right? But for me seems serious. It make me feel anxious. I wanted to stay home, watch a movie or something.

For many this is a textbook definition of a looser, but i am happy with those small things. Looking by the posts around here i feel my definition of happy is very childish or womanish.

Got a promotion at work? Cool,ehmm not really. Who cares, it will probably mean more hours. Got a raise? Great, not that i will buy a Porsche with it. I don't even need a Porsche.

Sunny day? Smell of fresh cut grass? Love it.

See? Somebody could say i am not a wolf, i do not chase or seek the blood. How do you change yourself into the wolf from this weakling?