Hello, have been away from community for a while now. Applying TRP principles, and actually busting my nuts after ltr crash. It works. AWALT, DGAF.

But now as I have set my priorities, got some vision in my life. I meet new people and new situations. Things I do are quite long term and I have been in them for like 5 years now.

As title says my biggest challenge is not thinking about getting my dick wet, but other people. Males in particular.

I found myslef being an quiet, conscious guy. That has lots of ego, especially if I disagree with someone and I now turn on my disagreeableness and rising tone. An asshole.

I used to be just quiet all the time.

I might be self amused and out going with close friends or isolated chick I fuck. But once it gets to unfamiliar group of people, especially in work environment - I might get cocky and status seeking.

Recently I had an situation. I got invited to teach in a seminar. In total 1 lead, 6 teachers and about dozen of students. Everyone kinda knows each other from years ago.

So me and one guy teacher got put together for one topic. During two weeks I have done theory and most practical lessons alone. Out of 10 days of seminar guy has been in and out. He has skipped like 4 days in total.

Problem is as he is older, buffed guy and has better overall connection with other teachers, he feels like my opinion is worthless.

I know size matters and I am much lighter and have no boxing experience unlike him. And I am kinda a new guy. So he had better frame again me.

After sone days and him missing I found that students were failing some practice tests so for the next day I organised class so that it would clear thing out for them. But the guy came back and just made things his way. Even tho we discussed what had to be done, what my plan was and how I am going conduct the class.

But it seemed like he thought I am the one to help him. So it lowered my self esteem and I didn’t want to make a drama in front of everyone.

I kept quiet and just helped him out with class.

After the class he wanted to give me the papers with student answers that we had to check until next day.

While trying to grasp what would TRP theory would say, I told him,

-nah dude, you keep it.

After a while in the other room he was getting ready to go places, some night shift in another work.

While doing my stuff and everyone around I hear the teacher talking with the guy about the papers. Why he didn’t just handle it to me to fix them.

Guy walks up trying to hand me papers and I am like,

  • Dude, I understand, I have my other work to do too. (While shrugging my shoulders)

Which is true, other projects and shit.

I am on good terms with leadership and some other teachers. Students have nothing bad against me.

But now I dare you there will be some backstabbing and trash talking. So I wont get invited in the future.

So question is, what could I have done different? How do I handle shit like this in the future? Should I study 48 laws of power a lot?

72 kg, 180cm. 1 rep max 3 months ago. Squat: 120kg DL: 140kg Bench: 80kg

Thanks.