BACKSTORY

I recently ended my relationship of two years. It was hard but towards the end of my relationship I felt like I was putting in more work than her to make things work. She eventually suggested we start seeing other people and I was exhausted and elated at the same time.

I'm sleeping around. I know the best play would probably be delete Facebook, acquire aesthetics and get money but it was a two year relationship and I've been fucking around since I was pretty well behaved though out the relationship even when my ex was being a little fucking slut.

Actual problem

Girl 1

So I've banged a few girls but the other 8s and 10s I've been seeing are younger girls but not dumb. Or maybe they are, I don't know. The first one just got out of a relationship because she cheated with some frat bro who was just using her for a booty call. She doesn't want to have casual sex with me because she doesn't want to feel easy anymore. Wants to feel special but not in a relationship

My Response

I felt it would go without saying that she would feel special around me. I've been ignoring other girls advances towards me when I take her out. We've been out on a couple "dates" but nothing I'd call official. Never payed for her food, except at McDonalds. She gets all of my attention. Willing to actually listen to her bullshit drama. I'd call myself a therapist given the years of exposure I have had to it myself and the arm-chair psychology I am able to perform after having read Frued, Adler and Jung just for fun. When I'm serious I can be a pretty helpful dude but I also made my intentions to fuck clear from the very start. We've been getting close to fucking but every time she stops right before the actual act and cites any myriad of reasons but the recurring major ones that I don't think are bullshit are her history of being assaulted (perhaps sexually...) and the fratbro + having just exited a relationship. Also is one of those girls who doesn't "kiss" or avoids eye contact. Which I am fine with if we are fuck buddies but if she wants to be "special" and have "meaningful" sex then those are two things that I'm going to fucking do.

I was pursuing seriously for about a week, and by that I mean hanging out with her constantly but I kept feeling like she was "trying" to play me. I feel like shes trying to keep me on the sidelines until something better comes along. Haven't talked to her in about 5 days.

Girl 1 TL;DR: Not sure if actually emotionally hurt, or trying to be a little shit of a girl player or both. Haven't actually done anything except get a shitty blow job and a tit fuck.

Girl 2

Met her at a party. Wicked smart. Wicked cute. I was half a bottle of everclear deep but I was still hard as adamantium and able to fuck like a champ if she would have let me. We end up doing everything but fucking. End up talking about exes and my overall shitty life when drunk, but segway into how these things have kept me motivated, and gave examples. I was a cocky shit the entire time. Alpha as fuck except for when talking about exes.

Today we hung out. She would have let me fuck but I didn't think I was going to hang out with her so I had probably rubbed out 20 loads over the course of the day and couldn't get hard to do work.

After she hangs out she texts me saying we can't hang out anymore. I kind of felt this one coming. She kept her distance the entire time. I feel like my drunk alpha as fuck game suckered her in. Made myself to sound like good will hunting, couldn't deliver when sober. I normally fuck like a champ. I'm out of shape right now. Normally I'm 155 lbs @ 6% body fat but I train exclusively for fucking endurance, but I'm 165 & ~12% body fat right now.

Response to Girl 2

I became a beta faggot and asked why instead of just ignoring her the second I read the message. I guess she and I both knew I was using her for some sort of confidence boost/validation but when I was drunk I was strictly a fucking machine.

TL;DR: Surrounded by beautiful girls. Can seal the deal with most but my success rates aren't as high as normal. Just trying to analyze where the failures are. I believe its beta tendencies. How can I be less beta?