I took the red pill around 18 although I'm honestly purple pill by nature (as you're about to read). I was fucking these bitches to sleep until around my 27th when I have to be honest, it started to feel a bit lonely. This nice girl came into my life that I was fucking in the weekends for a couple months, then one weekend as she was about leave after she slept over, the hospital called that her mom was taken in, and she had to get there immediately. Now I had to choose; do i join and support her, or leave the situation as it was not really my business and so on. I decided to go with her, she was good to me never did me wrong and from there on our relationship started.

As you can imagine that relationship was all kinds of drama, the most toxic experience I ever had. She was loyal but clingy as fuck in the beginning. I accounted that to her mourning at first even tho I didnt take no shit, but after a while I had to enforce stronger boundaries. I had to leave her multiple times for her to get her head right and then after a couple months of sucking a whole lotta dick she'd start getting crazy again. So I left again. For like 9, 10 times. All the while I knew, she was basically a girl I should've kept in my rotation, she was a solid 9 and the sex was crazy so so was she. Also not on my level intelligence wise, but her being alone after her mom passed, man as a man I couldn't ignore that thing inside. The way she apologized every time I left made me feel like she was loyal to me beyond anything so I kept taking her back. Until one day I had enough, I was already cheating so it didn't matter really, moved on.

So just as I was about to start doing what I should be doing I meet this other girl, an actual virgin which was crazy to me, very intelligent, ambitious, cool as fuck and we had such a good time it just became another relationship naturally (I know..). Now since the beginning I told her, "you should know this wont last too long, I just feel like I can learn a lot from you," and she did. This girl, took real good care of me. I had to recover after those five years of emotional hell and this girl helped me on every level from the goodness of her heart. Money, attention, good articles, motivation for all my endeavors, like a cheerleader she gave me everything I needed to get strong again. And now a year and a half later I don't feel attracted to her anymore. The greatest personality but she's a 7, and a half at best. I need to move on again but my conscience is getting to me.

Now, I am going to move on, but it bothers me that even tho I know how this game works, that she would probably leave me if she had better options too, still my conscience gets to me. If I was truly red pill I would not feel like this, would I? Should I just tell myself a girl like her deserves better and cut it off as soon as possible? Yes I'm the first guy to bust inside ever which is super rare but I didn't force her. Get back into these streets and fill my rotation up with all these dirty unloyal hoes out there?

What would you tell yourself in this situation.